Senior Airman Ontai

Congratulations for making it to Honor Guard!

Its amazing how one's life flashing before your very eye! Derrick is my oldest child and the furthest one away from home. Can I add the only one away from home! As a young girl barely knowing anything about life, I gave birth to this bundle of life when I was 19 years old. My life was a big mess and then on top of that I got myself pregnant. I remember walking into Planned Parenthood and the female worker coaching me on aborting my unborn child. She was trying to convince me that abortion was my only choice. Im glad I was stubborn and listened to what little sense I had inside of me. The only choice I had was already made. I chose to have unprotected sex and got myself pregnant. Now I had to grow up and become responsible in raising a baby in a world that to me was so upside down, chaotic, and one big ball of confusion. How was I suppose to do that when my life was a complete mess? I had no idea, but I knew for better or for worse this little baby and me was on a journey of a life time....and now look at the picture above..."Senior Airman Ontai". ....too proud of you son...mom loves you soooo much...Hurry up and come home....Im so longing for one of your hugs!

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” Jeremiah 1:5

One Thing I Know for Certain...

Celebrating Joshua homecoming from the Marines

A friend reminded me of my blog and I had to think for a moment, "what blog?". I had forgotten about this page for awhile now wrapped up with all of life's responsibilities. I had forgotten that journaling was once a big part of my life. Being able to write and journal so not to keep things bottled up inside. Journaling for many including myself was a big part of a healing process.

As I read through some of my postings from the past, I became caught up with emotions. Some happy and some sad. So much has happend since my last post, but yet good or bad ...I do need to say I am so truly blessed to be where I am today. I have developed friendships with true joy and laughter...oh yeah and some tears (but tears to heal) and its all good. I've grown more spiritually and I thank God for all He alone has done in my life. He has sustained me through the many challenges and yet as many times as I have stumbled He has continued to pour out His grace upon my life.

Life is full of so many uncertainties...job loss, family moving, even loss of life, but the only one thing I know for certain is... "...He will never leave you nor forsake you..." Deuteronomy 31:8.